2 is better than 1?

Ok it's middle of the night and I'm blogging WTF right?
Well my maths finals is tomorrow and seriously I don't wanna fail this
I don't know why but when it comes to number when I don't understand I don't wanna learn it anymore
Guess this time I really have to buck up and do right.
Well this blog is dead anyway is just a way for me to say my heart out
Recently somebody came into my life and I got to admit, she is not someone that I expected I would fall for,
but I did and I fall hard the problem is,she is attached and I just don't know our relationship progress to
more than friends but not more than that. It really hit me hard but I don't wanna give her up
She is something that I want to hold on forever but I don't want her to be torn between me and and the bf
Sigh... I don't know why but somehow I felt like she feel the same way as I did or I just over perasan-ed again
Well we keep arguing bout stuff but sometimes I felt like she is avoiding me for something
I feel that I should give up soon because of this cause after all I'm the third party in this relationship.
Well its 1.07am now and I gonna get back to my maths.
Till next time my blog,you are my only reader here anyway =)

sincerely,
Alex

Presentation Again and Again

Phew finally done with one presentation left 2 more!!How I wish it will be over within this week but too bad I got basic english the week after =( Luckily tomorrow will be critical thinking presentation,hopefully I will be prepared enough to get some decent score. God haven't feel so nervous for presentation since form 6 now gotta repeat all over again.

On the plus side well my leg at least is healing a little by little now.Hopefully can be healed by end of this month?I miss basketball alot xD class started will blog again soon

Ciaos,

Alex

Epic fail

The post will be started off with a loud sighhhhh I failed mathematics again

I don't know when but lately I am damn emotional about stuff

The minute my mum calls me my tears started to flow already I don't even know why

I felt like I let my mum down with these results as she is working hard to support me study

and the only thing I know she hope for now is for me to get a good result and I couldn't achieve it

am I a useless son?I used to not care bout my results and now I'm crying over a test!Even in Stpm I didn't cry and now......haizzz I feel so sorry for my mum whom work hard to support this stupid son which take everything for granted.I'm sorry mum but I failed you again and again =(

My mathematic teacher is awesome

My mathematics teacher is awesome till everyone doesn't care bout what she is teaching and doing their own work ==! Worst part of it I don't get any of her teaching, I'm in trouble now.Hopefully will own enough pointers to keep me afloat in Foundation.

Make over

well i just deleted everything from the previous blog layout and now,unfortunately i'm stuck lol...dont know what to do next any ideas???
Will start blogging back soon people

pissed off

Well not much to explain except it's pretty darn obvious that we all are so pissed off at the results.1st of all is it fair for everyone that people vote not by talent but by the colour of their skin??
2nd is it fair for everyone to let someone that is bad at social skills be a president?
3rd is it fair for everyone if your love one is the previous president you will get a post in a society?

Nothing much that I care but really is it fair for all of us?
I felt like there is no justice being serve here but to be fair some of them deserved it
But some of them...well... not that deserving...
but what the heck it's already being done and the future seems to be a darkess black hole i'm gonna see...maybe i'm just ranting or i'm a sore loser whatever....
but I think some of them are more deserving than them
Well maybe that fair for them...but NOT fair for us
let's just see what you guys can do for us and we will let the time tell
There goes my plan for next year and this year as well
Might as well be a nerd and study study study if that can get you postition

Oh ya...thanks for the guys and girls that vote for me...appreciate it but too bad someone else won it 'fair and square'

I'm back!!

It's been two months since my last post.I know I'm lazy xD but what to do my homeowork is still waiting for my pens attention my driving is still ...... and my computer really gets on my nerves so now only decided to post up the last chapter of my story which i find it hard to finish it.More post ill be coming up sooner or later ahhaha


"See? Andy likes you! He just wants to keep the relationship just as friends! All cool with you?"
"Yes.." she said softly. Justin took her hand and walked away with her.
"You all right, now?"
"Yeah!" she nodded. "But he only wants us to be friends! because I'm a nerd!"
"Michelle! Why don't you ever think about me? You know he's a jerk! Why do you mope around for that! So what, if he doesn't like you! Everyone is different, Michelle. To my eyes, you are a beauty. You can't always think about him! There are other guys out there for you! Not just Andy and me! I really don't want to see you like this."
"Justin! Do you really love me?"
"I don't think I need to answer that!" They stared at each other for a long time.
"Justin!" She tried to push him away and he staggered a little.
"Michelle! answer this for me! do you love me?"
"Justin, I never intended to be your girlfriend. I just want to be your friend."
"Oh, I see! you're treating me like how Andy treated you. You don't want to be my girlfriend because I'm way different than you. You don't want to be my girlfriend because I'm better looking than you and you're afraid that people will jeer you because of that. Well, you know what? I don't care about any of that!" And with that, he grabbed her and locked her lips into his. After a while, he moved away.
"Oh, you really do love me!" She hugged him.
"But, Michelle! do you still have feelings for him?"
"Yes! I always have, and always will."
"Do you want to be pretty? Like those girls over there?" Justin pointed to a group of girls. They all had big hoop earrings and what Michelle noticed was that they did not have any thick glasses like her. Michelle nodded. She was pretty ashamed about it.
"It's all right, Michelle. All girls want to be good looking. Even they were ugly once. Everyone is."
"Really?"
"Sure! I used to act like a girl once. I always thought about my appearance, my clothes, and my hair ; just like a girl."
"Haha! That's funny!"
"It's good to see you laugh. Now, Michelle. I'll help you become pretty'. Then will you be happy?"
"I don't know. I've never been attractive in my life.." she said innocently.
"Well, it's time you are!"
"OK! we'll start off with your hair. It's nice and curly. I don't think it's right to put it up in a hairdo or anything. Something needs to go with it. And I have just the perfect thing."
"What is it?"
"Michelle! we need to pierce your ears."
"WHAT?!"
"AAAAAAAHHH! OUCH!"
"Well, that wasn't so bad! right?"
"Yeah right," Michelle said, rubbing her ears. "Justin, it's even painful to touch my ears!"
"Then just leave them alone before you get an infection!"
"All right! Geez!"
"Now, we need to focus on your clothes. You can't always have a blouse with a tight sweater squeezed over it, you know. It looks like our school has a dress code. You should have a shirt with a miniskirt. That would look good on you."
"OK! now that we have all the clothes and jewelry, all we need to fix are your glasses. We need contacts for your eyes."
"How are we going to do that?"
"I know someone who can get us contacts. I knew my eye doctor for a long time. He can help us with it."
"So you want to give her contacts for these glasses?"
"Yeah. Can you help us?" "Well! the lens are really thick! You must be studying really hard, student," he
looked at Michelle. She smiled and nodded.
"So! will you take them?"
"Yeah, I guess. I really like the design. It can be a display. And whoever wants it, can get it. All right, let's get you some contacts."
"That was pretty easy, right, Michelle?"
"But it's pretty weird not pushing up some glasses every 10 seconds."
"Haha. But your new blue eyes look marvelous."
"Wait a minuet! You got blue contacts? BLUE?!"
"Yeah. And the extra pair is just regular hazel... the same color as your eyes."
"I want the hazel ones. I don't want to be a weirdo."
"No. Don't you want to be matching with Andy? Andy has blue contacts, too, you know!"
"Fine!" Michelle pouted. But Justin knew inside she was happy. He knew he was going to have to let go of her.
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On Monday, Justin brought Michelle to school. Everyone gathered around them and agreed that Justin and the new beautifull girl was a good couple. Justin put his arm around Michelle and took her to Andy.
"What up, man? Who's the chick?" Andy asked.
"You'll never know."
"So tell me!"
"You want to tell him, girl?" Justin asked Michelle.
"H-h-h-Hi! I'm Michelle." Justin and Michelle smiled when they heard him gasp.
"The! the nerdy! nerdy girl?"
"The same, Andy! the same."
"Can I talk to you, Justin?" Andy took Justin away from Michele. "Dude, what the hell is happening here? That's not Michelle, right?"
"It is Michelle! How can you live like that? How can you live with one spontaneous idea stuck in your head? Can't you ever think about Michelle being beautiful and attractive?"
"Well! no."
"See? I knew this was a bad idea. But she loves you! Can't you believe that? And I love her! so I'm letting her go to the one jerk she loves. Peace, man," and with that, Justin walked away. "Good luck, Michellee." He stuffed his hands into his pants pockets. He tried to stop the tears from streaming down his face. Michelle! if you love him that much! I'll let you go. I hope that jackass won't hurt you. Justin think at his mind
"So! You're Michelle! The one I rejected?"
"Umm! Yeah."
"Well! I've thought about it, but I think I want you to be my girlfriend."
"Your girlfriend?"
"Yeah." Michelle couldn't believe her ears. Thank you, Justin. "So! do you accept?"
"Of course I do! It's always been my dream!"
"Gosh! you have pretty weird dreams! Hey, you look cold. Here." Andy took off his sweater and wrapped it over Michelle. Michelle was so happy she was crying. Andy wiped her tears and comforted her.
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After school, Michelle called Justin to thank him.
"Hello?"
" Justins! Thank you so much! It went so well between Andy and me!"
"That's! that's great, Michelle."
" I owe it all to you. Let's go out for lunch or something sometime. I'll pay." Michelle sounded so happy.
"Michelle, I don't think that'll be possible."
" Why not?"
"I'm leaving! to England."
" What about your parents? Why are you going? How are you going? I just don't believe this!"
"My parents were dead a long time ago, Michelle. I have enough money to get on a plane to England."
" But! what about me? I thought you loved me!"
"Yes, I do. But you're in love with someone else and I don't want to burden you. I want you to be happy with the one you love and not be pressured by me. Tell Andy that I congratulate him and tell him good-bye please. Bye, Michelle."
Click!
Michelle couldn't believe it. She was able to date because of Justin. She was able to get attractive because of Justin. She was always comforted because of Justin! And he was leaving her out by herself in the big, hateful, hideous world. She felt suddenly so scared. She dialed Justin's number again, but he disconnected the phone. She finally knew who was important to her now.
She quickly dressed into the clothes Justin had bought for her and ran outside. She was running for dear life to Justin's house. When she got there, he was right there, in front of her.
Michelle was so happy she cried out, "JUSTIN!!" He turned to face her. "Justin, how can you leave me like this?" Justin looked at her with his soft eyes.
"I'm sorry, Michelle. I have to leave. My cab's here. Bye, Michelle." Justin gave her a peck on the cheek and disappeared into the taxi. She watched the taxi disappear into the curve and watched her Justin gone! forever. She started crying and crying as if her life was over. But it was! she was now alone in the world, with no one to support her.
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-15 years later-
Justin came back to America as a successful lawyer. He came back to America in search for the girl he had loved 15 years ago. Everyone in England had questioned him. And now that he was back, he was able to search as much as he wanted. But, little did he know there was a problem with that.
"Andy?" James had called Andy. They were in touch the whole time Justin was in England.
" Hey! What's up?"
"I came back to America, dude!"
" Oh! Umm! OK!"
"I want to ask about Michelle. Is she all right?"
" You see, Justin. There's something about that you should know."
"I'm getting a bad feeling about this!"
" Well, I guess you can say she's happy and well."
"What do you mean?"
" She's with God, man. She's gone."
"Haha. Nice joke. I'm not kidding. Tell me where she is."

"DUDE! I'M TELLING YOU! AFTER YOU TOLD HER YOU WERE LEAVING HER, SHE STARTED GETTING DEPRESSED AND GETTING STRESSED! IT WAS HORRIBLE, MAN! WHY THE F*CK DID YOU LEAVE? SHE WOULD STILL BE ALIVE! BECAUSE OF YOU, SHE HAD TO SUICIDE! WHAT THE F*CK IS WRONG WITH YOU, YOU DUMASS JERK! I THOUGHT YOU LOVED HER! I DON'T THINK THAT'S WHAT GUYS WHO FALL IN LOVE DO TO THEIR CRUSH! SH*T! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. REMEMBER WHEN YOU CALLED ME A JACKASS? You'd better think again.- Click! The phone fell from Justin's hand. He dropped to his knees in disbelief. He just couldn't believe it. He felt like everything was against him. He felt so angry with himself. He felt like ripping himself up. He wanted to follow Michelle up to heaven.


For days and days, Justin didn't eat a morsel of food. He started getting so much stress.
20 days later-
Justin was buried right next Michelle's grave. His tombstone read:
R.I.P.Justin Eins
1980-2005
THE ONE MAN WHO LET GO OF A WOMAN AND LOST HER